I wish I could start a new LJ from scratch but still keep the username captainoo.

I hate seeing all the fangirl-y posts about bandom on here as well as all my "I hate my life, life sucks, why aren't I good enough?" posts from seventh and eighth grade. My views/interests have changed so drastically since then and it's just embarrassing seeing it on my LJ. I would go and delete every single entry but that takes so long. I wish there were an option in the settings that allowed you to delete everything; entries, tags, etc.

But on the topic of therapeutic writing formats, I really need to get a new sketchbook. All mine have really shitty doodles and stuff in them and I need a nice one that I could use for multiple things like: journal entries, lists, drawings, doodles, ideas, etc. Cause I need all my ideas all in one place. My thoughts and ideas are so scattered and my brain is up to the brim in information, that I forget things so easily. The bad thing is, is that I can't write everything down. I need someone to talk to. Almost like a therapist, but more of a friend. It's not that I have any major problems aside from the "my family/family history is so fucked up" business, it's just need someone to talk to about my thoughts and process them and actually pay attention.

I'm probably talking myself into circles.

I need sleep.

I'm outtie.

Shakespeare Ria.

What is this, I don't even.

Oh lawdie that picture isn't flattering at all.

I grew up watching Next Generation with my mom and flailing over the wonderfulness that is Patrick Stewart. Also Captain Jean-Luc Picard of the USS Enterprise is just a bamf. AND MY GOT TO SEE HIM PLAY MACBETH IN NYC LAST APRIL. I'M STILL ANGRY THAT I WASN'T ABLE TO GO. CAPTAIN JEAN-LUC PICARD AS MACBETH. STAR TREK AND SHAKESPEARE. TWO OF MY FAVOURITE THINGS. WHAT EVEN.

Ahem. Anyway.

I never really watched much of TOS because my mom wasn't that big of a fan of it. BUT MY STEPDAD IS. BOB THE MAN WHO HATES EVERYTHING NERDY AND IS SNARKY AND READS WILLA CATHER LIKE NO OTHER MOTHERFUCKER. THE MAN WHO MAKES FUN OF ME WHENEVER I DO SOMETHING INCREDIBLY STUPID AND NERDY LIKES STAR TREK: TOS.

So anywho, he bought the ST: XI on BLUE RAY. I totally meant to go see the movie in theaters with my mom, but she was busy at work and I was busy sleeping during the summer. WHOOPS. BUT WE OWN IT ON BLUE RAY. DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW BEAUTIFUL STAR TREK IS ON A 48IN HDTV ON BLUE RAY? IT'S GORGEOUS.

And thus my love for Star Trek has been rekindled. So much GQ-ness I can't handle it. What is this, I don't even.

I am by no means new to this fandom, hello I was practically watching Star Trek with my mom when I was in the womb.

This Halloween weekend pretty much sucked.

Friday: Got to dress up to school as a zombie and it was awesome. But I felt so tired that I slept through the party I was supposed to go to. FFFUUU

Saturday: It rained while Lorelei, Jessica, Rachel, Eric and I were trick or treating. But I got a good amount of candy.

Sunday: I did homework all day then helped my mom do inventory for her costume store. I still need to finish a lab.

ALL I WANTED TO DO TODAY WAS DRAW.
Speaking of drawing, I need to get a new sketchbook.

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LIFE. IN LIST FORMAT!

1. Marching band. It has officially sucked up my life. I speak band geek now. I want to become a section leader for the guard. Oh lawdie.

2. School. I'm doing a whole lot better this year than last year. I like being the smart kid in class. We're gonna start writing short stories in English soon.

3. Friends. I've been getting a lot closer to Courtney lately and it's awesome. Now that I'm in in high school, it's easier to talk to her during the day.

4. Family. I haven't seen my daddy in a while, but I'm seeing him this weekend.

5. Kingdom Hearts. I have 358/2 Days. I have 358/2 Days. I have 358/2 Days. I have 358/2 Days. I have 358/2 Days. I have 358/2 Days. I have 358/2 Days. I have 358/2 Days. I have 358/2 Days. I have 358/2 Days.

6. Art. I hate being inspired really late at night. I hate hate hate it. I've been wanting to get into photography more. I want a moleskine. Oh god, I'm turning into a hipster.

7. Books. I still need to read Paper Towns.

8. Room. I need to re-do The Wall of Epic™.

9. Music. Pop-punk needs to get out of my life.

10. Weather. It's my favorite time of year and it's my favorite month. My favorite holiday is on the 31st.

Today, in my World History class we were going over the Catholic reformation and we started discussing the Spanish Inquisition. My thought process: Spanish Inquisition > LOL MONTY PYTHON > Spain IN the Monty Python sketch. Oh lawdie. MLIH.

After school today, Lindsey and Ariel helped me with flag work for Barbarian Horde.

That song I was really terrible at, so I asked for extra help/practice from them.

After correcting my mistakes and doing the entire songs run through with the music, Ariel said that was the best she’s ever seen a rookie do that song. I’M SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS. And they thanked me for actually asking for extra help and taking the time to go through it even though I have 3 quizzes to study for tomorrow.

To congratulate myself for a job well done I’m gonna sit my ass in the comfy chair in the family room, watch The Nightmare Before Christmas and eat my pumpkin spice malted milk balls and drink some lemonade.

Today was a very good day. I got 100s on two of the quizzes I took today. I wore my favorite shirt and I felt pretty all day.

I love today.

ALSO.

Did I forget to mention that I'm apart of my school's color guard? Well, I'm apart of my school's color guard.

I miss my daddy.

Marching band has basically eaten up my life and because of it I haven't seen my dad in three weeks.

I got back from band camp yesterday. There was lots of work with a dash of drama and fun. Before the afternoon practice on Saturday started the guard talked about what we can do to improve practices and we went around in a circle and said what we like and dislike about guard. But the veterans had to say what they gave up to do guard. They said things like sports and free time. I gave up seeing my own father.

I left my graphic design project at Lorelei's house and it's due tomorrow. FFFFUUUU.

I'm gonna go do algebra homework and then shower and then sleep.

Period 1- Graphic Design Ms. Moser just gave us forms and our agendas. And we also went to class meetings. SHE FORGOT TO GIVE US OUR LOCKER ASSIGNMENTS. NSKJDNEUKF. John and Artem are in graphic design with me so it’s cool.

Period 2- Ancient Rune World Literature My English teacher is okay, she’s not my favorite. She was asking questions about stuff we learned last year like thesis statements and stuff and I was the only one who still knew what she was talking about. This class is going to be so fucking easy.

Period 3- Arithmancy Algebra 1 We had to solve a problem and I forgot everything about algebra over the summer, so I got the problem wrong. >:C That class is gonna be boring.

Period 4- Japanese BEST CLASS SO FAR. All my friends are in it and it’s gonna be amazing and awesome. AND OHMYGOD I’M SO EXCITED.

Period 5- Lunch COURTNEY IS IN MY LUNCH FUCK YEAH. So I was sitting with her, Laura and Allison at lunch. And then three other guys came along. I have no idea who they were. But Allison is friends with the person I hate most in this entire world and guess what? SHE SITS AT OUR FUCKING TABLE. BAHDBHJFBRJHGBRJHFBHDBBC. Ms. Moser finally got me my locker assignment and combo

Period 6- Flying Gym I have it with Jay, Courtney, Wendy and Emma are in my class. FUCK YES. They lost my lock over the summer >:C so I have to buy a new one tomorrow.

Period 7- History of Magic World Studies I love my teacher so much. She is amazing. AND AND SHE PLAYED THEY MIGHT BE GIANTS DURING CLASS. And oh my god I’m so excited for this class.

Period 8- Potions Biology We learned about microscopes. :| My teacher is pretty cool. I don’t have a problem with her.

And my locker is next to Kevin and Ryan so that’s pretty awesome.

Seeing as the start of school is just around the corner, I'm going school supply shopping this weekend! It's a bit sad how excited I am. School supply shopping is one of the greatest things in the world. DON'T EVEN DENY IT. YOU LOVE SCHOOL SHOPPING TOO. Ahem. Any way.

It's a bit crazy how I'm going into high school in 3 weeks. It's a little hard to believe actually. I know, high school, big whoop. I've already planned out what colleges I want to go to OTL. Yeah for big elaborate plans! I'm not very worried about the workload, the drama or anything else. I just don't want to take midterms and such.

I am considering getting a new LJ for the start of high school so I'm not embarrassed by all the posts I made in middle school. But I like being captainoo. But I really don't want to go and delete 403 entries or friends lock them.

Um.

I've been getting back into anime, manga, Japanese fashion and J-rock as of late. OH OTAKUDOM. HOW I MISSED YOU.

Colorguard starts up on the 23rd. I don't wanna start waking up early.

I've been painting like a madmen recently. I've been drawing more. I'm so rusty it's ridiculous. Everything I draw seems so shitty. BUT I WILL PERSEVERE.

I still need to do summer reading! Woooo. I should probably start doing that.

You can learn a lot about someone by the music they listen to. So here is the game! Hit shuffle on your ipod or mp3 player and write down the first 25 songs. No cheating or skipping songs that are shameful. That is the fun! Then tag your friends.

1. You've Got A Friend In Me// Toy Story Soundtrack
2. The Ice Storm, Big Gust and You// Tilly And The Wall
3. (Come On) Let's Go!// The Smashing Pumpkins
4. It's Not A Lie, It's A Secret// Lemuria
5. Dizzy// Jimmy Eat World
6. Polish// Fugazi
7. Superheroes// Daft Punk
8. Rumble With The Gang Debs// Tullycraft
9. Rock My Body// The Higher
10. Counting Stars On The Ceiling// Stars
11. England// Ghost Mice
12. Fireworks// Carpark North
13. The Boys of Summer// The Ataris
14. The Party Scene// All Time Low
15. The Bandit Queen// The Decemberists
16. Love Is Impossible// This Is Ivy League
17. In Which Draco Malfoy Cries Like A Baby// Harry And The Potters
18. Punk Rock Uniform// Karate High School
19. For You Blue// The Beatles
20. Accidentally Like A Martyr// Warren Zevon
21. Someday The Waves// Iron & Wine
22. Lights// The Cab
23. Gimme Gimme Shock Treatment// The Ramones
24. O, Valencia! (live)// The Decemberists
25. Shut Up!// Simple Plan

According to this my favorite Hetalia characters are:

1. Austria (got that right)
2. England
2. Romano (S. Italy)
2. Japan
2. Korea
2. Poland
2. USA
2. Spain
2. France
2. Canada
2. Prussia
12. Greece

THEY WERE TIED SO MUCH. OTL. BUT IT WAS RIGHT. THESE ARE MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS.

And according to this my favorite Hetalia pairings are:

1. Prussia x Austria (MY OTP >:D)
1. France x Canada (MY RUNNER UP OTP)
3. USA x England
3. Lithuania x Poland
3. Sweden x Finland
6. Spain x Romano
7. Germany x Italy
7. Denmark x Norway
7. Greece x Japan
7. Korea x China
11. Russia x China

IT GOT ALL MY FAVORITE PAIRINGS RIGHT TOOOOO.

LEAH GOT ME BACK INTO JAPANESE FASHION.

I want stuff from Alice and the Pirates so badddd.


LOOK AT THESE PANTS. THEY SHOULD BE ON MY LEGS NAO.

1. Assorted knick-knacks. My Batsmaru plushie, Sasuke action figure, Williäm, George Washington puppet, Amaretti cookie tin, porcelain and gold dolphin statue, Phillie Phanatic baseball, good luck cat, Gayruto headband, my wand, Merling + dragon statue, my favorite water brand bottle, Hermione snow globe I got at a garage sale, Peter Pan “piggy” bank (that’s full of British money), and a wizard snow globe my dad got me.
2. All my CDs.
3. Writing guides, grammar guides and dictionaries.
4. My snack cubby. Currently has potato chips in it
5. My iPod, phone, compooper, post-it notes, favorite pencil, Prismacolor pencils and my coloring book.
6. My pencil cups made out of a Halloween pocky container and a tissue box. Candle, hand cream, chapstick, post-it note container, pins and keychains container, my moose mug, Luma and Paopu fruit plushies.
7. Important stuff plus my favorite pencil case. Important stuff = Matt’s mix CD and my Threadless gift card code.
8. DS cubby
9. All the books I am reading/ going to read.


1. Video games and DVDs that don’t fit on any shelf
2. Big sketchbooks, canvases, and cardboard to paint on.
3. Makeup/jewelry box/money box/SHOES


1. Art shelf. With paint, pencils/charcoal, markers, crayons, paint brushes and ink containers.
2. Printer. Prints I got from Otakon and Matt and Noel’s paintings ontop of said printer. Plus wipes (when I’m too lazy to wash my hands after painting stuff) and wand box
3. Sketchbooks/notebooks, computer stuff box, encyclopedias, school year books, middle school diploma, and scrapbook


1. Hats, scarfs, and empty containers in case I ever need them
2. RECORDS RECORDS RECORDS. :DDDDDD


1. Top shelf: Harry Potter books (HBP missing cause it’s in my “To Read” cubby in my desk), Harry Potter “look deeper into the books and philosophy and background info” books, His Dark Materials, paperback Lord of the Rings books + The Hobbit and The Chronicles of Narnia Next three shelfs: Books ordered by their color. PLZ IGNORE THE TWILIGHT BOOK. I honestly don’t even know why that is still on my shelf. Brb throwing it away.
2. My electric guitar. Not pictured is my acoustic guitar.


1. Record player! On top of my record player are American Photo, AP, and Shonen Jump magazines cause they couldn’t fit on the shelf.
2. My rifle!
3. Top Shelf: Manga, Game Informer and Nintendo World magazines, books on The Beatles. Bottom Shelf: Books on the Japanese culture, fashion and manga. SO. MUCH. SHOJO. BEAT.


1. The Wall of Epic™ which is currently under renovation. Panic At The Disco, Hetalia print, Jack Sparrow print, Cobra Starship, My Chemical Romance, Harry Potter print, concert tickets, My Chemical Romance, The Beatles, Cat Stevens, Andrea’s letter to me, and John Denver.
2. My bed. Doesn’t it look comfy and inviting?
3. My medieval England map plus my Shakespeare and the Art of Insults poster.

So it seems I have recently become obsessed with this little series called Axis Powers Hetalia. And holy shit I love it so much.

My favorite characters are definitely Austria, Poland, England and France.

I wanna cosplay Austria or Poland so bad.

BUT ANYWAY. I hung out with with Leah, Lorelei and Lylah on Wednesday. Much discussion about Hetalia. And then I slept over at Leah's that day. And we came up with many not!fics.

- LOTS AND LOTS OF AUSTRIA/PRUSSIA PIANO SEX. Where all Prussia wants to do is fuck (while obviously having feelings for Austria), Austria wants to be romanced and wooed the old fashioned way (dinner dates, whispering sweet nothings in each other's ears, etc.), Austria doesn't want his piano to get scratched and ruined so Prussia buys a piano just for piano sex and it turns out to be a really nice piano that Austria has had his eye for a while and refuses to have sex on it. Also before Prussia buys the Sex Piano™, he always jumps Austria when he's playing and of course Austria is all "Prussia, I demand you to get off me at on- Oh wait, fuck, do that again". _{And we also said that Austria is a total closest Star Trek fan (and owns every season, thank you very much) and thinks that Prussia caught some crazy Pon Farr disease. Prussia secretly loves it when Austria speaks nerd.}

- Sweden and Finland play I Spy! Like the book I Spy. So Finland is so fucking bad at I Spy and Sweden is a fucking beast at finding this shit. So Sweden says to Finland "I'll give you a kiss every time you find something". So of course there is lots of blushing all around cause they are so adorable and awkward. Finland of course puts his "TIME TO FIND SHIT" face on and is determined to find everything in the book and is failing miserably. Sweden takes pity on him and just kisses him for the hell of it, kiss turns into HAPPY MAKING OUT TIEM and then I Spy is forgotten.

- I know there was one where a bunch of the nations are playing Wario Ware: Smooth Moves cause their all secret video game nerds and America JUST FUCKING SUCKS AT THIS GAME. Cause America is a first person shooter kinda person and not a mini-game Nintendo game player. That's more Japan's thing. Of course England is laughing his ass off at this and making snarky comments at America while saying to Japan that his video games own America's video games. But England is a total World of Warcraft geek and no one cares what he thinks (besides America, cause he wants to prove that stupid British pansy wrong but in reality America just wants to make out with England). Germany totally has Halo marathons with America on the weekends while Italy plays games like Nintendogs and Cooking Mama. France totally plays RPGs like Final Fantasy (cause he likes the character designs and the pretty outfits). AND CANADA PLAYS POKEMON LIKE NOBODIES BUSINESS.

- I know we had a Lithuania/Poland one but I forget what it was cause we came up with these at like 2.30 in the morning

LAYER ONE: On The Outside

Name: Ria Teitelbaum.
Birth date: July 20th, 1995.
Birthplace: Glen Ridge, NJ.
Current Location: New Providence, NJ.
Eye Color: Blue/grey.
Hair Color: A weird combination of light blond, dark blonde, brown and black. MY HAIR NATURALLY DID THIS.
Height: 5'3".
Righty or Lefty: RIGHTAY.
Zodiac Sign: I'M THE NEW CANCER AND YOU CAN'T STAND IT~

LAYER TWO: On The Inside

Your heritage: Hungarian, Dutch, Russian, and German.
Shoes you wore today: My awesome polka dot flats and then flip flops to go to Leah's house cause my flats were soaked from walking home in the rain.
Your weakness: Procrastination, laziness, and I tend to get annoying after a while. OH. And my moods can go from being super happy to super bitchy.
Your fears: Being alone forever, getting Alzheimer's, and big spiders. Little bitty ones I don't mind, but big ones bother me.
Your perfect pizza: Cheesey crust, mozzarella cheese, not a lot of sauce, mushrooms, and black olives.
Goals you'd like to achieve:
- Short Term: ACTUALLY WRITE A FIC, draw more shits, and eat healthier.
- Long Term: Go to art school, do well in high school, draw more stuff, eat.



LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

Your most overused phrase on AIM: LOL
Your thoughts first waking up: WHY AM I AWAKEEEEE DDDDD: -goes back to bed-
Your best physical feature: I like my eyes.
Your bedtime: 2.30am - 5.30am.
Your most missed memory: When my brother and I hung out together.

LAYER FOUR: Your Pick

Pepsi or Coke: Whatever is available.
McDonald's or Burger King: UM, IF I'M REALLY HUNGRY I DON'T NECESSARILY CARE WHAT FAST FOOD PLACE WE EAT AT.
Single or group dates: CALL ME WHEN I ACTUALLY DATE SOMEBODY
Adidas or Nike: Adidas cause Kyo wears it. OTL
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Snapple. Kthxbye.
Chocolate or vanilla: Vanirra.
Cappuccino or coffee: C O F F E E.

LAYER FIVE: Do You?

Smoke: Not cigarette smoking, but pot smoking is alright with me.
Cuss: FUCK YES I DO.
Sing: When I is alone.
Take a shower everyday: ...Lolno
Have a crush(es): .......
Think you've been in love: Nope.
Like(d) high school: I'll most likely like it.
Want to get married: Yes plz.
Believe in yourself: BELIEVE IN ME WHO BELIEVES IN YOUUUUU.
Get motion sickness: Nope. I'm able to read in the car and stuff.
Think you're attractive: Somedays I do, somedays I don't.
Think you're a health freak: NOT AT ALL.
Get along with your parents: My mom, sometimes. My dad, sometimes. My stepdad, all the time.
Like thunder storms: YES. HOLY FUCK, I LOVE THUNDER STORMS. THEY ARE MY FAVORITE.
Play an instrument: Flute and guitar.


LAYER SIX: In the past month have you...

Drank alcohol: Yes, some sips from my mom's wine when we were in Washington DC.
Gone on a date: Nope.
Gone to the mall?: I've wanted to.
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: I DID IN JUNE.
Eaten sushi: NO. NOW I WANT SUSHI. THANKS.
Been on stage: Nope.
Been dumped: No.
Gone skating: Nope.
Gone skinny dipping: LOL I DO SOMETIMES IN MY POOL.
Dyed your hair: I want tooooooo.
Stolen anything: I stole a pencil from Lorelei. Lol.

LAYER SEVEN: Ever...

Played a game that required removal of clothing: LOLNO.
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope.
Been caught "doing something": NO.
Been called a tease: LOL BY JAKE.
Gotten beaten up: No, I BEAT THE BITCHES UP.
Shoplifted: Nope.

LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older

Age you hope to be married: 23-32
Numbers and Names of Children: 2. Andromeda, Alice or Luna for girls. Dylan, Oliver for boys. JACKIE CHAN IEROOO~
Describe your dream wedding: I WANT TO WALK DOWN THE AISLE TO THE IMPERIAL MARCH.

LAYER NINE: In a boy/girl

Best eye color?: I don't care.
Best hair color?: I don't care.
Short or long hair: I don't care.
Height: I don't care.
Best first date location: Movies.

LAYER TEN: In The Numbers...

Number of people I could trust with my life: Three.
Number of CDs that I own: About twenty.
Number of piercings: One in each lobe.
Number of tattoos: None.
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: Three.
Number of scars on my body: Four.
Number of things in my past that I regret: A LOT.

I was feeling particularly angsty last night. Lots of negative thoughts and paranoid feelings. BOY THAT HASN'T HAPPENED IN A WHILE.

But, I got over my angtsy-ness. I started making a happy spam on tumblr. It's basically all the things that make me happy. I got a bunch of other people making happy spams as well.

FUCK YEAH BEING HAPPY.

I just don't care anymore.

CARMEN SAN DIEGO.

Lookit what someone on tumblr made for my birthday.